I've been getting sudden moments of Realisation lately.
A few days ago, I realised how differently I was approaching things when it comes to drawing and criticism. I had grown up a little.
And today, when my sister returned home with her wedding cards, I suddenly remembered me panicking a few years back.
Back then, I was beating myself in my head over how unskilled I was and made a vow to be able to paint my two cats by the time my sister got married. I was very afraid and unsure that that would ever happen.
Today, as I finished off painting my friend's cat
, I realised that I've been able to that for some time now. And she's getting married in a few months. I'm just in time.
It was nice to realise that past me would have been relieved to find out this fact.
I beat myself up a lot in my head, I should allow myself to be amazed once in a while.
But I am still very very VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY far from being skilled. VERY VERY FAR.